Roots / by Frog Wing

Peter Hagan, September 2018

The following is a short writing on roots in Lashihai. I was amazed by how close the family was to their farm and their home since it was something I had never experienced before. I called that connectedness “roots.” Problems arise quickly when talking about being “rooted” to a place. There are hundreds of thousands, if not millions, of Chinese men and women who left their hometowns for urban areas where they could make a more comfortable living. That is the result of a capitalist economy that has developed quicker than a community’s ability to cope. By doing so, they left a particular life that they are deeply connected to but that is completely understandable why they left. Maybe they did suffer a loss of identity but they gained modern offerings of freedom and comfort and are able to create and fulfill new personal ambitions. Further, are problems of scale: we can identify a house, a farm, a neighborhood, a city, or a nation-state as the home of our roots and find no conflict in feeling connections to multiple places at once. The problem, then, is a problem of definition. What are roots? How do we lay them? How do they affect us, the space and people around us, or the way we experience the world? Are roots really that important for survival? Are they becoming a nostalgia for a bygone era of humanity? The questions are important and so vast that my initial reaction to writing something about them was to compare roots to blackholes. That is why I struggle so much to write about the subject. There are no quick and easy answers for these questions.



On the He family farm there are three ancient pine trees, two within the family

compounds and one outside. Over generations, the trees have been bent into strange and

extraordinary but enchanting twists and bends, branching at odd and dramatic angles designed

and directed by human hands. In order to bring the trees to the shapes they are now, the family

lashed the trees with ropes and twisted metal wires around the trunks, tightening the restraints

until the shape is set. Now the trees are old, older than anyone in the family. They stand as

permanent effigies of the family that bound them.

Scientists say that, besides the taproot, roots grow opportunistically when the weather is

warm and the space is free. These old trees in the courtyards have root systems spreading deep

and wide; veins beneath a skin of concrete. Over the generations the trees grew bound with wire,

taking the shape defined by humans, leaving a permanent definition on the trees for their

lifetimes. But while their trunks are twisted and mangled, their roots are vast, untouched, and

unrestrained by the facsimile of the cement casing. The roots punctured those long ago.

***

Sitting at the table after lunch, Frog pointed out that the kitchen is older than the United

States.

“Well, not all of it, but the beams and the frame are.” We sat silent in that distinguished

room. After a moment she said, “I don’t know if you noticed, but Grandpa walks the same paths

every day and sits in the same place every day. He must have some power in repeating that path

all the time. He knows the farm so well. Sometimes I see him sleeping in between the rows of

corn.”

The Dongba conduct special ceremonies when a new home is built because it places a

human space permanently into the world, upsetting the balance between human and nature.

Generations later perhaps nature has accepted the settlement and then what exists is a testament

to the intimacy of their relationship: fertile fields and a family that remains. I am no Dongba. I

cannot say how effective the ceremonies are but I can see the depth of the bond. There, that farm

draws life from you like few places I have ever visited. It gives back food and warmth and for

me, a subtle awareness that you have stepped into a new stream of time, time that is still

insatiable but without supremacy in life. A time we can ignore and let run without chasing it

down the stream or feeling like we miss something as it drifts by. Our attention isn’t in a fleeting

moment, caught in regret; it is in the space around us, a space that has been colonized by the

roots of the family.

Roots run deep there. Deeper than any place I have ever visited or lived in or

experienced. Roots seemed to be present everywhere I went in Yunnan. That day Frog and I

talked about Grandpa I imagined him walking in invisible ruts carved into spacetime. The

alluvial farm transformed into an infinite plane of soft clay where Grandpa walked the same

paths for his lifetime, pressing and repressing footprints into the land. I imagined Grandpa

walking the same paths that his parents walked and the same paths his great grandchildren would walk. Eventually, I couldn’t separate him from the land. After so many generations how could farm and farmer be anything but one in the same? Even with smoking and drinking, Grandma said, “Grandpa has only been very sick once. He has only gone to the hospital once.” What happened to the farm when Grandpa was staying in the hospital?

Grandpa and Grandma must be able to see a remarkable amount of detail in the land

around them; the minutiae of the farm would be as familiar as fingernails. The alluvial farm

would be as clear in their memory as it is in reality; they live within both worlds simultaneously.

We all do. But Grandma and Grandpa probably do not suffer from the same fading memory that

we do since their memories are on and of the farm. Those are the roots that I’m writing about.

Roots are memory and are an entanglement of living. These roots span time by digging into

space. Grandpa and Grandma are as rooted to the land as the old pines in the courtyard. Their

walks are the blood in the veins. They are eternal caretakers of the land, which is them and their

family. Their relationships (and each one like it) are truly dense, thick and heavy. But mostly,

they are alive and alive in a way that you can point to and touch it and say, this is a life. This is

here and now and has been and I hope always will be.

***

On the He family farm there is an ancient pine tree growing in the middle of their

courtyard. Since a young age it has been coerced into twists and bends and branchings by metal

wires. Now, the tree is so old someone built a metal scaffold to hold its branches up. I worry that

a storm could tear it down in a night; a tree hundreds of years old gone in an evening.

I also wonder if the tree really is that old or if the growing process hides its true age. Even if it is

a young tree it is as much an artificial structure as the compound surrounding it, all planned and

planted. I asked a gardener how difficult it is to move a fully grown tree. Don’t do it unless it’s

absolutely necessary to save the tree, they said. The most difficult part would be carrying it. I

asked her how to treat the roots and whether or not they would be damaged. She said not to

worry, the taproot might be damaged when you dig it up but it will grow back and new roots will

take hold eventually, if you’re lucky. But moving the tree disconnects it from the vast mycelium

network, which takes it away from the neighboring trees. It isolates the tree in a new

environment amongst trees that share carbon, nitrogen, and water like a family shares meals.

You’ll run the risk of isolating the tree forever. You wouldn’t want that for yourself, would you?